Sunday, August 21, 2011

First Official Day of Homeschooling

(I think I avoid writing about homeschooling because I'm the only one doing it yet and I'm not sure exactly who my audience is.  So I suppose my audience will be Madame Coin :) )

Tomorrow is the official first day of school and I have a little bit of insomnia (of course).  I was thinking about what if we decided last minute to go back to the local public school.  I know his teacher and I think he'd be okay in there.  Maybe a bit stressed again.  Oh my gosh, I forgot about the stress!!!  He's such a sensitive kid and sometimes I just waqnt to feed him to the wolves hoping it will toughen him up, but I know it wont.  And I also know that's why God sent him to me.

Anyway, so I was thinking about it and I felt sad and a little sick.  No matter how much I want to have more free time to sew and do yard work, I know that this is something I need to do this year.  I don't know if we'll go longer or not; one year at a time.

I'm very excited though.  And it's helping ME.  I'm more disciplined and more available to my kids.  I've had to get more organized and stick to the routine and I can see it's helping me.  I'm mostly happy with the K12 curriculum and know that I will do a better job teaching with someone to be accountable to.  It's good to know that about myself.  I like designing a syllabus and schedule, but the lesson planning was doing me in this summer.

I still have no idea what I'm going to do with the girls....

2 comments:

  1. Oh, to be more disciplined and organized!

    I need these things, but I'm so lame about doing it or implementing it.

    I still feel really sad when I think about sending Guy to school. We'll see how that goes this time next year, huh? I want to homeschool so badly! I just fear that my going back to school means I'll need to send Guy to school.

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  2. And you may need to and that OKAY. I could NOT have homeschooled last year with my depression. There's just no way. And you may not be able to with school. Don't be too harsh on yourself :)
    I may not next year because of my middle...I still want one on one time with her. We'll see.

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