(I think I avoid writing about homeschooling because I'm the only one doing it yet and I'm not sure exactly who my audience is. So I suppose my audience will be Madame Coin :) )
Tomorrow is the official first day of school and I have a little bit of insomnia (of course). I was thinking about what if we decided last minute to go back to the local public school. I know his teacher and I think he'd be okay in there. Maybe a bit stressed again. Oh my gosh, I forgot about the stress!!! He's such a sensitive kid and sometimes I just waqnt to feed him to the wolves hoping it will toughen him up, but I know it wont. And I also know that's why God sent him to me.
Anyway, so I was thinking about it and I felt sad and a little sick. No matter how much I want to have more free time to sew and do yard work, I know that this is something I need to do this year. I don't know if we'll go longer or not; one year at a time.
I'm very excited though. And it's helping ME. I'm more disciplined and more available to my kids. I've had to get more organized and stick to the routine and I can see it's helping me. I'm mostly happy with the K12 curriculum and know that I will do a better job teaching with someone to be accountable to. It's good to know that about myself. I like designing a syllabus and schedule, but the lesson planning was doing me in this summer.
I still have no idea what I'm going to do with the girls....
Oh, to be more disciplined and organized!
ReplyDeleteI need these things, but I'm so lame about doing it or implementing it.
I still feel really sad when I think about sending Guy to school. We'll see how that goes this time next year, huh? I want to homeschool so badly! I just fear that my going back to school means I'll need to send Guy to school.
And you may need to and that OKAY. I could NOT have homeschooled last year with my depression. There's just no way. And you may not be able to with school. Don't be too harsh on yourself :)
ReplyDeleteI may not next year because of my middle...I still want one on one time with her. We'll see.